i always feel i ain't a good enough girlfriend, i always seem to be unable to take my own stand when you need me. i always cause you to be unable to sleep at night, cause you're thinking of me, whereas i sleep like a pig no matter what. i shouldn't be so fortunate to be your girlfriend. till now, i still think you are mad to think that my boyfriend is a lucky guy.

yesterday, when you hugged me and said you are so happy you have me, i felt so touched. cause i didn't do anything, and yet you feel happy. then when i saw you standing at the corner of my house, watching me walk into my house, i felt i let you down. i can't find the courage to ask my parents. and so i made you sad.

i don't know how to comfort you. the only way i could, was to be by your side. and yet last night, i couldn't even do that. i feel so useless as your girlfriend.

i worry so much about you, but i never do anything to care for you. what kind of girlfriend am i?!

darling, please cheer up! cause i don't want you to be unhappy. and if you are unhappy, then i won't be happy too, cause i will feel useless. darling, don't despair or give up ok? i love you, no matter what! muack!

please smile, for me...